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8.7.25

 8.7.25 Duoloxitine 20 mg Here I am again, 3 years later. I successfully weened off of lamotrigine and now I am attempting to do the same with cymbalta, the last drug I am on. It's been fairly smooth for a while but I am starting to feel side effects creeping in. I'm having anxious mornings again, and feeling fear manifest in my body like stored electricity and clamps on my muscles. The only things that help the pain are exercise, AA meetings, and sometimes praying. Everything inside of me wants to throw it all away and just run. Run back to NC, run away from the work I need to do in AA and give up. This is old behavior.  I've weathered the storm before. I feel it's no coincidence that I found this old weening blog almost exactly 3 years later. And realized that 4 years ago was when we found Dad. My body is remembering the trauma involved with this time of year on multiple levels. I have to be kind to it and patient with myself. I have to accept my feelings as they aris...
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8.5.22

Duloxetine: 60mg in AM Lamotrigine: 175mg in PM Side Effects: Headache in the morning. I took one Advil and it helped.  Brain fog, but still able to get primary tasks accomplished. Low energy and fatigue. Went home at half day to take a nap instead of going to the gym at lunchtime. 
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8.4.2022

Duloxetine: 60mg in AM Lamotrigine: 175mg in PM First day of weening off of Lamotrigine. Took 175mg last (Wednesday) night but I am calling the first day as today in terms of any side effect records, which is the purpose of this blog. What I hope to achieve from weening off of these poison drugs is new energy, better weight management, and the ability to actually feel things.  It will be a long, difficult road but it is time to begin. I will be doing this under the supervision of my therapist. I am sober for over 2 years, and I am in a healthy place in my life to try this. I am on a low dose of the mood stabilizer. I have been on it for 10 years when they told me I was bipolar in the mental hospital. That is not true. However, it did get me through a rough decade. I am more stable than I have ever been at this point in my life.  Side effects: low energy, fatigue  
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